I Wish I Was
The past few days I have been thinking about a lot of things, and much has been on my mind. But the main focus of my thoughts have been on humility. Humility is something that I cannot claim to have. Sometimes I don’t even want to work on it–I put it aside and decide that I will take the consequences of my actions. I know beforehand that pride leads to a fall, but I don’t care. I just push on ahead, putting those great thoughts of humilty behind me.
Then there are those times when I display false humility. The humility that in reality is nothing more than pride. We’re not humble, but pretending to be so we can be proud we are so humble. We’re proud that everyone around us thinks we’re humble. I’m afraid it doesn’t work that way.
Over the past weekend, I began reading Humility: True Greatness by C.J. Mahaney. It’s a powerful book–extremely thought-provoking for me personally, especially considering the circumstances surrounding receiving this book (which I may relay to you some other time). This book has begun to help me strive for true humility in practical ways.
Even though there are those times when I don’t feel like being humble, I am still pushing on towards humility, and taking it step by step, as is Pastor Mahaney. It gets harder for me each and every day as God continues to bless me in so many ways.
But I have to remember James 4:6:
But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:
“God opposes the proud
but gives grace to the humble.”
We need to understand that humility is taking the attention and glory that belongs to God off of ourselves. We need to give all the attention and glory to Him. When we take the glory off of ourselves, we shine it on the awesomeness of God.
We are to be the least. God is to be the greatest.
It’s a wild thing to realize that being the greatest is really being the least. And that’s a hard struggle. It’s the root of sin–wanting to do what we want. What we want as humans is sin, and when we sin we are putting God below us.
That’s a huge reason for the New Age movement–people want what they want–their own rules, laws, religion–and they want to look out for number one. That’s who matters to them.
But it doesn’t work that way at all. The least shall be the greatest.
And I’ve got a long way to go.