The Struggle of Rebelution
The Struggle of Rebelution had taken me two weeks to write — then in one day, I got rid of my past work, and I just sat down and wrote it all out. It was shorter than I expected, yet hopefully the final product can fully explain my thoughts on the struggle that comes with doing hard things. It had been alluded to in the previous two articles on the rebelution (Doing Hard Things In My Life and My Story of Rebelution), and this will be the final true essay (if it can be called that), as the next article will be used for more of an announcement and request for guidance. Just keep your eyes open for that.
The struggle that I had in writing this article was mainly as to what issue I needed to address when it came to the rebelution movement — which issue is that which a rebelutionary would most struggle with? In addition, I wondered if I should address the improper applications of doing hard things as well as the myth of adolescence, which has been used by some to promote immorality and sin in the lives of young men and women. This was not where I felt a leading to write. Instead, I wish to briefly address one issue that I see many rebelutionaries, myself included, struggling with daily. When I say this, perhaps I am wrong. Perhaps this issue is for me alone. Perhaps not. But in all honesty, I feel that we all struggle with it in our battle to rise above low expectations.
When we finally begin to make headway we begin to fall into a trap of pride. It is the trap that I find myself in each and every day, almost each and every hour, and I feel nothing but constant grief for this sin of pride. I see myself and my duties of doing hard things a great benefit to our nation, my family, my church, and my friends. I see myself much higher than they are — more holy as I rise above their low expectations for themselves. I am the example they should follow, the writer they should read, and the speaker they should hear. This is absurd, to be certain, yet so accurate and telling of my inner thoughts.
It is with great pain that I relay this wrestling in my soul to you. Nevertheless I see this issue all across the board, infiltrating quietly and subtly. We are not living humbly as we should — truthfully, the hard thing is to humbly do hard things. This humility is lacking for many — or to be honest, many possess a very false humility. We claim that our work to do hard things is nothing, merely small things. We believe somehow that we are humbly doing good works and hard things, when our whole life is full of self-interest. We are many times doing hard things for ourselves and not for the glory of God as we should. We fool ourselves into thinking that we are humbly doing these things when many times we are far from humbly doing anything.
In saying these things, I should note that this is not always the case. Thanks be to God, we are doing hard things for His glory! However, this is not always the case, and as we wrestle and fight in a battle between the flesh and the Spirit, we can fall quickly and easily into the trap of pride and self-interest. This is a warning — a pleading for discernment. Tread carefully on the ground — if you think you are standing tall, you very well might be sinking into this trap of pride.
We must walk lightly, we must walk humbly, we must speak carefully, and we must do all to the glory of God. It is our life goal to make much of God — and in doing this, we will be doing hard things.